January 15, 2019

Dead Baby

We were at Max and Jack's (T) house with the kids. They just had a new baby, it was tiny, like I could place her in my palm. (I think she was a girl). They had a pool party and everybody was jumping in the pool and having fun with all the kids, but I decided not to go in. So they asked me if I could take care of the new baby. I said, sure. The baby looked like she was a dog and seal mixture, very weird looking. I was holding her in both of my hands, when one of the other friends came up to me, drying himself with a towel and said, I think the baby is dead. We touched her nose, it was very cold. I was starting to get nervous, but I said very calmly, "she's just sleeping" and gently tried to warm her up with my hands. She came back to life (or just woke up) and we had a good time afterwards.

January 05, 2019


I think I might've inhaled you
I can feel you behind my eyes
You've gotten into my bloodstream
I can feel you flowing in me

-- Stateless - Bloodstream

(to my Mia Wallace :)

December 28, 2018


One of the elders from the old church reached out to me and invited me back (I don't know who it was). I felt kind of hesitant, but I went anyway. I sat in the front row, everybody was surprised to see me, but was kind. I noticed my last name on the bottom corner of the bulletin. 
Alison brought Dorian up to, he seemed happy and told me that everybody is praying for me. All of a sudden I was very aware that I had a terminal illness (cancer)?

November 28, 2018

Tree House

The Marianna house was surrounded by trees and the branches wedged between the siding of the house and started crawling slowly into the rooms. I wanted go to Home Depot, but then I realized I just have to call my landlord. 

October 21, 2018


Virgina showed up out of nowhere with longer hair and started talking to me. It seemed like we'd been dating for 2-3 months.

October 15, 2018

Attacks from the sea

Exes were trying to come back, lots of confusion. 

Some people from work and I were playing pool somewhere at the beach on a second floor at a pub. Then Mike K. said, "Here comes the rain!" We all looked outside and there were thousands and thousands of Japanese airplanes coming and started dropping bombs. We were all laughing and kept playing pool. 

September 20, 2018

Last of Mer

We were sitting in a sunny room, Mer and Eric (her x) on a couch and me on a chair (I think). And Eric and I were trying to convince her that she'd be happier with me.