February 26, 2019

Half naked in the rain

I was hanging out with Meg and she was about to introduce me to her mom. We were in a small river front log cabin or something like that. 

I was half naked, and felt awkward so Meg and I went outside to look for a t-shirt(??) and it was sunny and raining at the same time. We started making out just laying down on the road (I was still half naked, I think she was totally naked) when we heard a car approaching, we were just giggling and ran back into the cabin.

February 02, 2019

Half naked show

I was doing a set at Joey N's show, he called my name to get up on stage, but I still didn't have my shirt on, I couldn't button it up, and I threw a tie around my neck. Went up on stage and did ok. 

Lost And Found

Took the kids to some kind of festival, and I was trying to make sure they have a good time, so I let them go by themselves. There was a bunch of people of course and I totally lost them in the chaos. I was looking for them all day, but couldn't find them. At one point I found D. but then lost him again too. All of a sudden it was the next morning in my apartment (or different house), still no kids, and Tomi was there laughing at something. I was very pissed at him. Called my ex's house, and the kids were there. She said I can pick them up for school this afternoon. 

January 15, 2019

Dead Baby

We were at Max and Jack's (T) house with the kids. They just had a new baby, it was tiny, like I could place her in my palm. (I think she was a girl). They had a pool party and everybody was jumping in the pool and having fun with all the kids, but I decided not to go in. So they asked me if I could take care of the new baby. I said, sure. The baby looked like she was a dog and seal mixture, very weird looking. I was holding her in both of my hands, when one of the other friends came up to me, drying himself with a towel and said, I think the baby is dead. We touched her nose, it was very cold. I was starting to get nervous, but I said very calmly, "she's just sleeping" and gently tried to warm her up with my hands. She came back to life (or just woke up) and we had a good time afterwards.

January 05, 2019


I think I might've inhaled you
I can feel you behind my eyes
You've gotten into my bloodstream
I can feel you flowing in me

-- Stateless - Bloodstream

(to my Mia Wallace :)

December 28, 2018


One of the elders from the old church reached out to me and invited me back (I don't know who it was). I felt kind of hesitant, but I went anyway. I sat in the front row, everybody was surprised to see me, but was kind. I noticed my last name on the bottom corner of the bulletin. 
Alison brought Dorian up to, he seemed happy and told me that everybody is praying for me. All of a sudden I was very aware that I had a terminal illness (cancer)?

November 28, 2018

Tree House

The Marianna house was surrounded by trees and the branches wedged between the siding of the house and started crawling slowly into the rooms. I wanted go to Home Depot, but then I realized I just have to call my landlord.